*snort* what?... chocolate egg laying bunnies?... bad cheese?... zombie jesus? *opens eyes and blinks a few times*

yea its easter, and sadly i don't really give a damn. not much of a celebrating type. to me this is just the end of a long, boring spring break.

in truth i have nothing to report and nothing to say. i just have to waste time for a few hours.

today after school i worked out with a former UFC fighter and ex-convict named Dave, a big dude with prison tats basically
we sparred and grappled for a couple hours and i had an amazing time it should become pretty regular soon, i'll probably cut my hair real short again if that's the case, don't want a bleeding scalp
the snow is also melting here so i can begin parkour again soon... i'll be plenty busy soon

so um... art... hmmm... nah, i'll be honest, besides a few concepts, i havent really done much as of late... i'm in a bit more guitar playing stage around now but it should take a full loop back to art again soon

**BRIEF, HARSH LANGUAGE AHEAD**

so anyways, fuck you
*yawn*
cool beans, now that i have that out, art news... hmmm
i actually have been drawing quite a bit as of late, but it's been mostly a study of anatomy so i'm sure its not really too interesting to you guys, and it'd probably have a censure warning on it
anywho, there's a particular drawing i've been adding little bits and pieces to over the course of a week, if i can find a damn camera, i'll upload it for you guys

but i wouldnt count on anything...

ever sit back and go, wow, my life feels a bit like a train flying off the rails right now?
story of my current one
so i guess i'll vent a little onto the internet, after all, the internet gave me most of this trouble
if you're smart, you should stop now and save yourself, go get re-addicted to coffee for all i care

theres just too much now, school, parents, people, rumors, money... fighting... its all a bit humorous though, i am making a few memories at least
and fighting is sport for me, if im protecting myself or its a mutual non-begrudging confrontation, i'm in, in a heart beat. but paths have ends, and mine ended when someone went public, damn newspapers.
i was starting to sleep well, now what? can i get away from it? or with it? do i find some natural drug like love that i can pull on for a bit? why? disillusions and ignorance are bliss, but only if you don't know that
and there's always the illusion of choice, like as if my parents are actually going to be giving me the option to quit something they deem important for personal pursuits, not that they factor into this as much as they'd like
and what's with the human species as a race? i dont even feel apart of you, i mean, i never really did, but its alot more distinct now. just the contact or presence of people annoys me to no end. where did i loose humanity? and, if i had the option, would i really want it back?
and who made this stupid pen? it was made in 2007, two years newer than the last version, and it sucks, stupid declining industries, but i digress
so what now? just the other day my class made a teacher cry, and after all she's been putting us through, i hate to say it, but maybe she deserves it... she's now up for review, that would be the 2nd new teacher fired this year if things go south... is it bad that i dont really care? that's the part of humanity that i dont really understand, but i wish i did... i might make things easier, by caring enough to make things harder...
i havent written, drawn, rapped, free styled, done parkour, skipped class, or gotten a bad grade in about a month... in fact, i've always had good grades... i kinda wish i got bad grades... maybe then i could understand a few things... and wouldnt stick out as much
i think its hilarious, if most anyone is fairly popular, they usually like being alone cause they never get to be themselves, but people who spend their time alone always want people around so they can become something they are not... its bloody hilarious... can humans ever be satisfied? heh... maybe for a moment...
i think i can probably just day dream through this whole series of events, time is a wonderful solver of unmovable situations

this has gone on far too long, i'm trying to describe something indescribable, like a color, the smell of rain, the taste of peaches, what it feels like to walk into a warm sunny day or realize just how much something matters to you just as you loose it...
i think this is all good though, cause if i pay attention, i might just learn something

now now now, art news.... you can start reading now if you're still here

i dont think i'll be posting in awhile, i havent drawn in a month and that last things were, pretty bad... i really need to draw more though, i need to get very good very quickly if i'm going to go to the school i want to

it is officially hot as a bikini contest here... well for here in the January... its a full 38 degrees
now that may be cold for alot of you... but we just got out of -20 weather, its like a heat wave, i was sweating when i walked out of school in a short sleeve shirt, i shouldnt fret though, we still have 3 or 4 more months of winter so it should cool back down soon

anywho

back to art, i got an awesome sketch pad and have been using it quite a bit, but writing seems to be taking majority rule as of late so i have nothing really worth putting up

hopefully will have some stuff soon though